2008 is going to END !!! xD

Wow, its been a eventful 2008; filled with joyfulness and bitterness for me. One of the high points of the year 2008 was having friends like Aaron Tam, Sherene Jawing,  Jason lee Chun Jon, Daniel Sim, Abigail Sim, Vincent Lee, Philip Tan, Johnathan, Wee Xiying, Abigail Sim, Wan Si, Elaine Voon and many more Christian Fellowship members. 

Studies however wasn't that great,  it was mediocre only; studied half heartedly and it wasn't that great and all since i focused on my assignments rather then my finals... i was also lazy too back then *and i am still lazy* . Personally i do not know why I'm like this... I thank God for the good things that he have given me such as my result, knowing well that i didn't study much but with HIS grace, miracles can happen.

The other high points for the year 2008 was that i was saved in Easter *it would be a another moment for me to remember*; By a chance of chatting with My future Ministry Leader Mr. Kenny Chew Phye Ken with my course mate Michael Yao Kah Sheng in SASS. Mr. Kenny invited me to the Tony Anthony talk and i accepted Christ in that talk. He have been a father figure in my Christian life as a i grow daily and he is the source where i sometimes share my secrets or i just let go some of my frustration to him and he listen to all of my weird stories and advise me what to do and I'm forever grateful for that. Although i at times do not listen to the advise =P

One of the many high would be having many friends in Church & College, all are dear to me.  another high would be my friend brought his girlfriend which is truly amazing to me as i don't think she would come but she came anyways *praise god for that*.

Another high would be helping out in the Combined Christmas Carnival and also celebrating Christmas after my baptism on December 21 *it would be a special occasion for me to remember* ; it was an eventful event  where many people of skin and race were bargaining and looking for cheaper deals in the Cottage Sale *Yard Sale actually but want to have a high class name?? ^ ^* Many stuff were sold but there was left over and the churches finally let it go for free for people to take. 

many good stuff have been said, 

The year 2008 was also a hard time for me as controversy sworn into the ministry because of me and a fellow ministry  which was both of our fault; no one is right nor wrong in this whole incident. The thing took alot of toll on the team and also Mr Kenny as he have  to settle this; fortunately it was settled in an amicable circumstances.

and to end this BLOGPOST; i will apologize to all of my friends for any wrongdoings that i have committed in the year 2008 and i beg for forgiveness if i offend anyone in this year. Many thanks for the people that have been a blessing to me such as Mr. Kenny, Ms. Yoke Kheng, Pastor Chris, Mr. Ho Hok Seng **i hope i got it right**, Mr. Kevin, Sahaya, The Yong Family, Aaron Tam, XiYing, Chung En, Hui En and many more that have helped me.

                           May You All Have A Blessed 2009 !!!!!!

Baptism...

This post was made in the Friday in the wee hour of the morning;

The time will be coming when i will be baptized, i will be baptized in December 21,  2008; Only just after converted into Christian in which i accepted Jesus Christ as my saviour during the Easter Talk where Tony Anthony talk was held in a hotel near Petaling Jaya... its been almost six months and there's been alot of changes that i have felt in my life,

i may still be annoying by talking too much *ps: i know i talk to much, trying to shut-up or tone down my talking xD* , My Christian life went well until a certain point where thing happen and its been a testing time for me and a fellow college mate and also ministry worker as my Ministry Leader is also one of the Christian Fellowship teacher advisor.... fortunately the issue is settled already and thankfully  we could talk to each other now and I'm glad that she have a companion that will be always by her side all the time which would make her feel safe.

God is good, HE is very good, HIS greatness and mercy flows like a river if u ask and confess your sins, i had done that and now i want to show my declaration of intent to show that I'm a children of god and i want to show of my baptism as a sign of my commitment to The Awesome One which is Our Lord Jesus Christ.

I'm kinda tired from all the ordeal of holidays as I like being in a place where i know like KDU College... i have spent most of my time in KDU and probably i will when i leave KDU after receiving my diploma..... I then will wait for any confirmation from God above.... then i will do anything that He commands me to do so....

note: post returns on 21 November 2008

..It was an event that was and will be significant for me as I was baptized by my GG leader Kevin Cheong and was assisted by Kenny Chew.. before the baptism; i has to share a word and i think i pretty much didn't follow the stuff that i was supposed to be saying but who cares ^ ^.

After baptism i felt clean from all the bondage's that has hold me back in the past and now I'm a new person.

What i get from the message by my Church Pastor in his sharing after the baptism service is that someone has called me to be baptized; the privilege to do the same has come upon me to do the same thing to my friends or to some one that i might know little in which i will gladly try and pray that i would be able to do so.

Jesus is the great Person up HIGH and we HIS children will gladly exalt him with all our hearts poured out grateful to HIM knowing HE came down to earth Two Thousand years ago to bear all of our sins and those that do not believed in HIM.

mood: joyful xD  currently listening to Dancing Generation by Matt Redman 

How Good is the Lord.

The Lord is Good all the Time... He is so Good

................................................He only gives the best to HIS Children in Earth;  HE do not give the worst of gift to HIS children in Earth. 

in Matthew 7: 9-11 NIV translation :  " Which of you, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children , how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! "

My result was released this week and i was pretty nervous as i hadn't really studied and furthermore before the exam was my 3D 2N camp @ MBS Rawang..... before camp i have to rush 3 assignment due on that day [ a presentation, 2 assignments ] itself in which i stayed up all night but i was pretty comprehensive whether should i go to the camp or not but i kinda feel that God was asking to go and let HIM take care of the result and all of my worries so i finished the assignments on time and also the presentation on that day it self.... then the time to go arrive and i carried my heavy luggage to college and waited to summit after doing the necessary check on the assignments and i passed it up.

The Day after camp was my first paper and i can say that i didn't study... although its a subject that do not require studying.... the next paper was more hectic and i browse through the notes and went on into the exam hall.... in which to testify, i just browse through the notes or i didn't at all.... 

result was announced or released @ 17 December which was Wednesday.....

i didn't wanna check because i was scared.... but then again... this isn't my first time worrying on results..... 

i went to college yesterday and checked my result and to my amazement, i passed all except for Consumer Behavior... no surprise  as the lectures are usually wordy based.... 

to my surprise i got 

C+ for Media Planning, Creative Strategy, News-Writing for E-Media, Mass Media Law (i fail short of getting an A in Mass Media Law but who cares... xD )

but i have to re-sit Consumer Behavior...  nothing to worry =D

small matter and i Thank God for the result... pray before the exam ....

mood: Joyful.... song mood: God is Good.

Contract...

Only a handful people know that i have a binding contract with my ministry leader Mr Kenny Chew Phye Ken [ mostly is church/gg members and my fellow campus ministry team and a few people that are significant in my Christianity life. ]

The Contract states that i can't drink sugary drink when ever I'm near him. of cause i didn't drink in front of him but i have a clause that states that i can drink sugary drink when ever I'm not with him.

I have tried to abstain myself but unfortunately i only can abstain myself for half a day....  but i usually lose control and drink sugary drink all the time..... thus breaking my promise.....

.... i have tried and fail... after which i went to KDU Christian Fellowship Camp @ MBS Rawang. One the second day, Pastor Albert which was a cool pastor btw ask who ever need to prayer for repentance; almost all of the people in the room said they want prayer of repentance.

 i started praying and I heard an audible voice from HIM saying repent for the mistake that i have committed * i think it was the sugar contract*

then when Pastor Albert prayed for me, i felt Mr. Ken and my course mate Michael laid their hands while Ps. Albert prayed together with Mr. Ken & Michael. 

Tears of Repentance started to flow but only after Ps. Albert prayed for me, i turned to Mr. Ken and weep  *i mean seriously weep... tears was flowing abundantly*  . During the moment i cried, i ask for forgiveness from Mr. Ken for breaking all of the rules in my contract.

the song Healer by Mike Guglielmucci is good as in one of the best song thats about Healing.

one of the verse in Healer is good.

Nothing is impossible for You

Nothing is Impossible for You

Nothing is Impossible for You

You hold my world in Your hands

It's said by Jesus to His people in Matthew 19:26 : "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."  The verse and song points out that to do anything, ONE just need to pray in HIS name and all will fall into position.

I thought that before i can control my sugar intake but i couldn't; the temptation is there. But by the Grace of God, HIS power are still hard to be known but all of HIS action is for the best and not for a turn to the bad.

He is so good, he will provide if u ask, if u knock the door will open. he's good all the time every time....

Grace of God

The grace of God is unimaginable,

HIS Great Work only some can comprehend, HIS people knows all of HIS great work and his promises; no one is bigger then HIM. He provides the best to HIS people.

The Song entitled Mighty to Save by Hillsong Australia is significantly important because its show the compassion from Jesus Christ to choose to come down to die for the people that belief in HIM and to those that do not belief of HIS Great Work.

Mighty To Save

Everyone needs compassion,

Love that's never failing;
Let mercy fall on me.

Everyone needs forgiveness,
The kindness of a Saviour;
The Hope of nations.

Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.

Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again.

I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.

My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

Shine your light and let the whole world see,
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus (x2)

How can a man that can do many great thing die for our sin ? its unbelievable and i wasn't that awestruck cause i was already a pre-believer when my Late Grand mother became a Christian.

currently listening to This Is Our God by Hillsong

Issues

Life's pretty much screwed up...

Life's is a pain in the *** at times but u preserve through it....

issues are hard to be resolved but it need to be solved.. not solving would meant that the issue is still available to one person be it its stored in the  heart/brains or where ever u place them .... a friend of mine have tons of problem but he's not wanting to let go of the past... a stubborn person if u ask me..... issues are meant to be forgiven and forgotten.... Jesus died on the Cross to get our Salvation; he took all of our problems, regret, inefficiencies, dilemma & put it unto his body which was sinless to save the people that believed in him and those that didn't take HIM as their savior.

... nothing could hurt you.... if u and a friend  were to fight over a girl... its between me and a person which i think is under age to understand the meaning of true love.. he is a friend and i treat him the way i should treat a friend... 

liking some one means u know when to let go and i doubt he knows what's this...

love is undefinable as different people have different interpretation and meaning to it....

we have an argument in msn... i hate chatting through msn if i were to have an argument... we had the talk in msn and it took me rambling on & on for 3 hour straight to get him understand one issue and i doubt that what i said to him actually made into his THICK head of his.... *i have pondered whether should drill his thick skull and put my message straight to his brain*  

i put a status update on i letting go and he put it like mine.... 

I'm at a point where i don't know what else i could do but to let God do all the worrying for me... why should i bother and worry ??...

currently listening to: Days of Elijah by Hillsong

Heart Broken.....and many more.......

Life's been good to me at times... God have blessed me with friends that are helpful.... but then again, life's also have bad to me.... putting me in a company of friends that they do not trust me and stereotype me; i know that they stereotype me... i just move on with life as holding grudges is pretty sad if u ask me, why would i hold grudges as its not the right thing to do ??, holding grudges only make u tired only.....

I'm a forgiving person at nature, letting things is a simple thing for me without holding back any hatred to anyone , i help people without the hope of returns, many can testify that i help people without return.. i only hope for forgiveness if i offend anyone in the past, people have been stereotyping me since the first semester i entered KDU Diploma in Mass Communication. not to mention that even lecturers also stereotype me...

I just move on.... nothing can stop me from studying ....life can be said to be bitter sweet .... hence its just the way it suppose to be ... God's forgiveness is whole and my forgiveness will be the same as the Awesome One. Let go with full force !!!.... Don't be a hypocrite by holding onto grudges

there's a girl i like before but she got a boyfriend recently, i wish her all the best in her current relationship and i hope that this will last forever. Nothing more that i can wish for the lovely couple which her boyfriend is my friend as well...

one thing that i regret most is that she kinda guessed that I like her... that's the bad part i guess... but then again.. life's moves on and continues to roll forward.

I went to the camp and i get a revelation from God.

God told me to serve HIM right and not half-heartedly.

thats why i will serve HIM the best i could......


that's all from me.... its been a long time i blog. September was my last blog entry... zZzZzZz

currently listening to Healer by Hillsong United.

Exams....

sorry folks for not blogging ... *well not all read my blog anyways !!! =) I'm QUITE frank so I'll apologize first if i offend anyone in any way !!!!



Today i have one of my many re-sit exams... the most funny thing that happen is that i actually studied for a certain time *which is not me as i haven't been reading these kind of material for a certain period as i have a short attention span.

the song that I'm listening while writing this post is God of Our Yesterday which were sung by Matt Redman in the album God of Our City where Matt Redman said that god is never failing and he never let go. Which is true as he have the power to let go if he wanted but he choose to stay in Earth to complete the Mission that were given to him by His father.

Back to my exams, i went to KDU Christian Fellowship and i worship the Lord only 2 hours before my resit exams... after which i went out and studied further and hence i can say that i was prepared for it rather then last semester.

After my Re-sit exams, i have hours to burn while waiting for Mr Kenny as the both of us were supposed to go to to Our Pastor House to his daughter farewell party as she is going to England to study in Nottingham University for 10 months.

Helping People

The first time was Last Week when i went home from college after picking up my Grades from my Previous Final Exams for the last Semester; there was an Indian Guy which look around his mid 40 to 50s.. He didn't have any change to seat the RapidKL T263 bus *if u don't understand RapidKl system, they only accept exact change for the Bus Tickets* and the Indian Guy have Rm5 as his smallest change; and me being anti-government and all decided to offer him a RM1 so that he can buy the bus tickets. At the bus, we chatted and he was amazed with the generosity of Malaysians. I decided to ask him bout the Olympics as an Indian Shooter managed to win a Gold for India, he went on and say that he was amazed that China invented a lot of stuffs like Paper, Ink, and etc . I didn't disagree with him but i say that it could be disputed.



The second time was today as I was going back on RapidT263 and suddenly a Lady that have an Australian Accent asked me where is the stop for Sunway Lagoon... I kindly told the Lady and Her Companion that the bus stop is the stop that I'm going to and I'll tell them where to stop; when we reach Sunway Pyramid bus station.. I offered to lead them to the Entrance of Sunway Lagoon as when i walked them to the Sunway Lagoon Entrance; i got to know that they are from Hong Kong. Nice Couple.. probably around the age of 20s and above


The most funny thing happen to me today, i brought my Camera, My Memory Card but i forgotten my Battery.... This is not he First time it happen to me already.....

People perception's

Now a days ... i can see that people like to judge people's actions whether its the right motives or not... the clear indications is the case that i have with my church mate... i have moved on with my life but hes still holding grudges on me.. i do not have any regrets anymore as if i still hold a grudge i only let anger in controlling my whole reaction.., My friend is still have a grudge against me hence its him that needs to let go.. He was in the wrong but i made the first move to apologize but he is still bitter (what else i want to do ??) bout it... i can't do anything to stop that from happening ... if its the case then this will have a bearing on him not me.. i have chosen to let it go but he still haven't let it go then its not my fault ... people only listen to 1 part of the story and begin to judge already... which i don't know why its like that..

furthermore, i do not know what else i can do.. i have apologized and he already accepted my apology... in the first time he made the first wrong action and all went wrong from there.... he added my friends at random and then my friend's friends deleted him from her friend list and then he re-add her ... so which one is worse.. please do get the fact right b4 u accuse me of being old fashion or cruel... if hes so good and all why his first account got banned.. and XY .. i know u put a comment in my c-box.. please have a bit of pride if u want to say anything (say it face to face).. i have more stuff to worry bout this tiny issue that is just 1% of my life.. i am out of breath and i HAVE put this issue behind me... this is the last post regarding the previous post.. i won't be blogging anytime soon cause i have final exams coming up....

so people... pls understand the predicament here.. if u were in my position, would u do what i did ?... if u do not random add people then i say that u're a good person, but then again i can't stop people form random adding for fun... its not about how many friends u have to be popular..Its bout Quality rather then Quantity ... u do not need to have more numbers of friends to be popular .. u need to have a close knit of friends.

(try putting u're self into my predicament first b4 u judge people) .. ppl will have a different view point if they took a look at another angle... its all i'm asking...

twisted ankle ... the pain that i suffered !!

Yesterday was one of my unfortunate event where i sprained the same ankle that i previously sprained only i knew that this sprain ankle is way way worst compared to the other sprain ankle .. i was running forward with the basketball * i was playing basketball when this thing happen hence this thing usually happen * after the sprained ankle...

... i toiled long and hard to walk back home which is hard considering the pain i am as i couldn't even feel my left leg for a couple of minutes... i eventually feel my leg but its not the feeling that i wanted as the pain was unbearable ... seriously .. i think my sprained ankle might be even worst then XiYing have but who knows.. she and i would only know the pain ..

here.. the aftermath of the pictures of my injuries (this was yesterday..hence it would the bruise will be bigger =S)


sprained ankle.. (i can't walk to this hour .. hobbling around the house now)




bad quality of pictures .. was in pain when i took this photo.

Life Journey

i'm not the person that have done great things in the past, even when i was studying; i didn't do well but i did enough to make it to the next level of education.. it continued upon my High School era . My form 3 days was one of my productive years as i was doin alrite in the sense that i actually did well in the class .. above average and i was one of the top in the class for the subject history.. but then it went all apart when i was faltering in class and slacked in class but i sought refuge in some of the subject in my SPM which was Principle of Accounting ...


i got to admit that my frantic study period in the weeks coming to the examination didn't do much for the information that i studied actually came about reached my brain as i was playing basketball till late @ night even tho i was having my finals .. ( i still do not know why i passed my SPM to this very day )


this rottingness prolonged into my first College that i enrolled into which is Kemayan ATC for my pre-law A'levels which i also flunked also and i went to work for 4 years before i enrolled into KDU college where i have found good friends and also some unwanted acquaintances in this past year a or so.. styill the rottingness still are here and i'm now stronger to stop it so that i can go on course to get a better CGPA for my diploma..


NOW for the revelation of my LIFE...

before i met my savior Jesus.. i was a normal human being that try not to provoke humans being unless they provoke me in the first place.. i'm a person that respect the other religion as i do not have any as to me every religion is a practice and all the religion need to go hand in hand to co-exist as there can't be a SINGLE religion that conquers all.

My dad is a Catholic and my Mum is a Buddhist .. My dad didn't give any pressure form me to have a religion ( thanks to that ) .. after some years in my youth ; if i were to remember , i was 12 then and one of her cousin asked my Late Grandmother whether she would like to visit her church that she goes to which was Glad Tidings. Not so long from then she frequently went to church and then was baptized in DUMC (Damansara Utama Methodist Church) and i was there to witness her baptism.

i was once a lost soul and now i'm found thanks to 1 person and the person is Mr Kenny from the Law School in the School of Arts & Social Science which brought me to a conference. in that conference was a speaker by the name of Tony Anthony and his speech over whelmed me and after when he talked about his life and stuff and also a video of a fathers heart.

This short Video shows me how lucky i am and how unappreciative i was in the blessing that i have received.


enjoyed the video.. i cried after i saw the other version (Tony Anthony version.. more or less the same detail but different editing)